Follow Your Heart

I am one of those people who can be enticed by the new and exciting. If the stone is unturned, I want to be the one to turn it! That said, it gets mighty tough sifting through what I want to do, need to do, feel like I have to do.

Until recently, I saw this as a total character flaw. I saw it as flighty. Undedicated. Unfocused. Uncommitted. Flaky. And shallow. You can imagine how heavy I felt, walking around, feeling that way about myself for 38 years, and carrying it around. DANG! Strong back muscles!

Until recently, I thought I was a complete failure, having never stuck to anything. Having felt that anything I did or was to do, was going to end up half-finished, barely started, or not seen through. Total drag.

I had heard the statement "Follow Your Heart" and carried it like a little totem affirmation, thinking, "One day, I will be able to do it, all my answers will be solved, I will know who I am, and life will be blessedly simple." But that never really happened.

Then, one day, I read a blog post by The Daily Love, with a feature from Your Joyologist, and there it was... "I don't know what I am doing - I just do it," she said. 

YES!

YES YES YES!!!

That is ME! THAT IS TOTALLY ME!!!

At that point I realized, I was okay. And not just okay, I was super-great! I was just looking at it all wrong...It was the positive spin on my personality. Finally. Finally, a way of looking at that aspect of myself that wasn't shed in a negative light.

At that point I fully realized, I just am who I am, I do what I do, and I HAVE been following my heart, and I AM doing what I love. Sure, to others, it may seem as if I am onto something new all the time, flitting from one project to another, but it's not they that have to live in this skin. It's me, and I love who I am. I LOVE diving in. I love trying new things! I LOVE BEING ME!

So, whoever you are out there, if you are feeling lost, or feeling like you don't know what to do, or don't feel like you know who you are, don't despair. Just follow your heart. And put it out there that it's the only thing you want to do. Your heart and all it has to tell will be revealed to you. Tune in. It's a part of you and it's trying to lead the way. Let it! I promise it will be fun!